Thursday, November 22, 2012

Scans

It's back. My remission is over.

I guess technically I never was in remission. There was a spot on my last round of scans but the doctors weren't sure what it was so we decided to just monitor it. On the scans I had yesterday it was doubled in size, so it's definitely cancer. They also found  four more spots on my diaphragm.

I can't say I'm surprised. I've been really tired lately and I've started having bits of nausea again so deep down I really knew. Also, this is going to be really weird, but the deciding factor was that popcorn made me sick. Before I had my tumors removed, eating popcorn made my stomach feel really weird and hurt. The other week I had popcorn and couldn't sleep because my stomach felt so uncomfortable. 

Chemo doesn't work and having surgery on that area to remove the tumors is iffy. It looks like there's nothing left to do. Even if we could do surgery, I don't think I will. The tumors will just keep coming back. My life would be longer, but I would hate it because it would just  be filled with surgeries. So I'm just going to keep on living my life as long as I can. I'm not sad or afraid. I get to be with my friends and family here and then I get to go to my real home in heaven. Either way it's a win win situation!

I just want all of you to know that I'm happy and I don't hurt. This gives me the opportunity to do what I really want to do with my life but didn't have the courage to do beforehand. I'm planning some great things and I'll post pictures here so you can all be a part of my adventure. I'm just going to close it out with my favorite scripture ever which just so happens to fit the situation perfectly!

For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.
Isaiah 41:13

8 comments:

  1. Lizzie, you are my hero! We have always kept up with your health through Bill and Sandra. You are an inspiration to all who know of your story. As always, you and your family remain in our prayers.
    Hugs,
    Cindy and Marvin Henderson

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  2. Your wisdom is so beyond your years. I've been praying for you, not only for health and a miracle, for your parents to have strength and clarity- but also for peace and for you to be lifted up with His love so high that there is nothing of this earth you can't handle. Going to keep going with those prayers- although it sounds like the last one is working really well. Thank you for sharing this- and can't wait to see what you have planned, and what He has in store for you.

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  3. I just don't know what to say so I will send love and prayers.

    Some people live all their lives without really living it. I have all the faith in the world you will LIVE no matter how much time you have in this earthly life.

    Much love,
    Denise Hoepfner

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  4. Lizzie,

    This probably seems to you as being "easy for me to say", but please do not give up; you are a miracle and miraculous things happen to gifts from God like you. My prayers are and have been with you and you have inspired so many to be hopeful for your recovery. A person like you does not come around too often and your gift to those around you is the gift of knowing you. Please keep hope alive and talk to God daily. God bless you always. Steve

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  5. I love you Lizzie and you're truly an inspiration!! You will continue to be in my prayers!! Live life to the fullest!!
    Shelby Garcia <3

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  6. Lizzie,
    I'm originally from Lufkin and have been following your battle with cancer through your blog, after seeing a story about you on the Lufkin Daily news website. I'm sorry to hear the news that your cancer has returned, but can already see that your strength and the same "Lizzie spirit" we've seen all along is still there! I've been so inspired by your faith and this journey that God has you on - He is definitely using you to reach out to others and share your faith and God's blessings. I am praying for you, and encourage you to continue to live life to the fullest. Thank you for being so willing to share your experiences - even on the bad days - and for sharing your faith so unashamedly.
    I want to share a favorite Bible verse of mine with you:
    "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
    Love & prayers,
    Lanita Anderson

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  7. Love and prayers to you and your family. Your faith will see you thru whatever the future holds for you!!!!

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  8. Everyday I check your site to see if you written something new. I hope you write soon about something wonderful you have seen or done.

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